I consider myself lucky to have been brought up around men who treated me like an equal for the most part. However, I have had my fair share of judgment and struggles for trying to do man things in my personal life as well as my professional life. Apparently, if you’re a woman you can’t lift salt blocks to a truck, or sell insurance properly, or drive a standard, or farm, or put gas in my own car. If you’re so quick to judge what a female is doing and busy telling us that’s a “man’s job”, then get off your sweatpant ass and be a gentleman and lift the salt blocks, hold the door for me, give me a chance when I discuss something with you.. or better yet, just back off and keep your thoughts to yourself.
When I was young I acted more like a boy than a girl. And apparently looked the part too. I always had an extremely stylish dirty blonde mushroom cut and I continuously got the boy toys at McDonald’s (and cried to Mom about it). I still have the Aladdin plate in my house that accompanies Kristin’s Barbie plate. Proof.
I hated “puffy” shorts and girly clothes even though I was forced to wear them. I would bitch and complain the whole time and shoot dirty glares to whoever made me put the outfit on. I would choose to be outside with my Dad over anything. I got my first pair of red coveralls for my birthday one year and I couldn’t wait to go outside and play in the shop. I thought it was so cool to be filthy and full of dirt and oil because to me it made me look like I had worked hard. Reality: clearly made more of a mess and probably didn’t do one helpful thing for Dad.
I enjoy running. And after a year of annoying the hell out of the neighbours on the 2nd and 1st floor of the apartment building with the treadmill, I finally got brave enough to run outside in our neighbourhood when we lived in Regina. I enjoy running outside way more than indoors. This love was almost ruined by obnoxious losers who decided to yell and honk at me. I would get honked at on a regular basis. It made my blood boil. 1- it scares me. 2- you’ve ruined my momentum 3- it’s lame. 4- I am embarrassed for you and now myself.
I am also not impressed when someone puts the pedal to the medal and goes screeching past me. Question: has anyone ever seduced a woman by doing that?? I’ve read five serial killer books lately so if that happens again, I am automatically going to assume you’re a serial killer who is about to snatch me off the sidewalk and go off speeding down the road with me in the trunk. So go away.
I love cutting grass and as a child it was my go to hobby. It really is great therapy. Music, outdoors, and it’s just you and yourself (a killer tan that will turn into melanoma in 25+ years). For the longest time I was too light for the automatic shut off on the lawn tractor (I wish I had that problem now) so I found a big rock to keep behind me so that when I pushed down on the clutch it wouldn’t sputter to a halt. Clever hey? This has nothing to do with anything, I was just impressed by my problem solving skills.
I have been heaving furniture around since I could walk. Like not even joking. My dad brings this up all the time. Every time me and him lift something he brings up the time we moved a couch at the farm when I was three. I am not sure I was that young but probably not far off. I get super Hulk strength when I want to move something. Like loading the treadmill into the back of my Jeep alone after we got bedbugs. Usually when I am lifting something heavy I instantly get the giggles. The few times Kenton and I have moved, it always ends in a domestic because I start laughing hysterically and become week and feeble.
I have always been “Daddy’s little farmer” and wanted to help him in any way I could. Whether it was greasing up the machinery, or following him down the gravel in the Dodge when I could barley see over the steering wheel. I am sure I helped the deterioration of that truck during the process of learning how to drive standard. Driving back and fourth down the grid 20 times a day didn’t help the mile situation either. That old bird managed to creep up to 600,000 km. There isn’t much on the farm that I can’t or wont do. Except climbing up bins. I don’t like heights and I don’t like heaving my body up slippery rungs.
Once I am shown a couple of times how to do something, followed by a million questions I am good to go for the most part. There is an exception when driving the 4010 straight with the tree planter behind. Ask Shawn, he was patient with me. And didn’t kick me off or get mad at me (that he showed anyways). But I knew my tractor driving days were over that day with that planter so I was quick to demote myself to the planter and Kristin and I finished the job.. and by finish the job I mean we all got off the tractor and hand planted them.
One of my favourite past times as a teen was discing in the tractor listening to music. I could sit in a tractor all day and never tire of it. When iPods were the craze I belted out The Killers and other awesome songs until my voice went hoarse. I would use up any time off from university to go home and help Dad during seeding. I was obsessed with driving. Hence me driving the Dodge at 10 years old thinking I was literally the coolest cat in the land.
I was so obsessed that I remember cutting out a steering wheel made of cardboard and taping it to the back of the passenger seat in Shirley’s car and pretending I was driving the car. Obsessed.
I haven’t helped out on the farm much over the last few years as my family members have been home to help. And the simple fact that I need to pay my own bills. It is my passion and goal of mine to make more of a presence at the farm again and to spend time doing what I love – being outside and helping my Dad. Now that Shawn will be home I look forward to working with the family and being on the farm more.
Farming and agriculture are passions of mine. Why didn’t I go to university to study? Because I didn’t want to move to Saskatoon. I’d much rather learn by watching what goes on during the day and asking questions. I have always been proud of my agricultural background and farming is what I did most of my school projects on (elephants coming in with a hot second) when I attended school in Regina.
I know a lot of active women who participate in the farming activities. But they have many other things on their to do lists to accomplish. Generally they also partake in some kind of other work whether it be part time or full time or the farms books. Most of them cook, clean, pay the bills, manage the accounts, drive for parts, wash the dirty clothes, look after the children, drive the children to sporting events and the list goes on.
There has always been a part of me that has purposely held myself back for the simple fact that I didn’t want people to think differently of me because I wanted to do what the men did outside. I wanted to operate the heavy equipment, help fix the machines, help put the crop in physically, etc. Sure, I could have said: “fuck them I don’t care what people think” but I would be lying if I said that I didn’t care just enough that I didn’t do it. I always looked up to my Aunt Loretta because she was never intimidated to jump in their grain truck and rattle it down the gravel road to wherever the destination was.
There is documentation of centuries of women being the primary caregivers. But now, in 2018, many times there are two incomes and both man and woman contribute equally to the household. But why are some woman still the ones to pick up the slack on the historical “woman’s” duties?
Why should some women feel that because she doesn’t contribute as much as her partner (income wise) that she needs to clean, raise children and whatever else to feel accomplished? It’s almost like these tasks are the equivalent of her “rent”. If that’s the agreement, perfect. But I have had many conversations with people where they feel the need to go over and above to make sure the house is perfect, meals are cooked and kids taken care of in order to feel like they’ve “paid” their share. I am grateful that Kenton and I both share duties equally. Except cat litter. Ain’t nobody (Kenton) got time for that. Quite frankly, he is the better house keeper. I am a closet hoarder literally and figuratively.
Around Mother’s day last year I saw this advertisement going around of Facebook for the perfect gift for your mom. It said something like: “Give your mom a clean home. Our cleaning services will clean the home so your mom doesn’t have too” or something like that. Yeah – lets invite a stranger in to clean the home your mom is protective over and probably doesn’t want someone coming in to dust the hoarded cupboards.
Here’s an idea- the perfect Mother’s Day (or Father’s day – whatever the situation is) gift would be cleaning the house for them. Or a nice dinner prepared. Or having your company.
Instead of playing the blame game or feeling jealous, not worthy and competitive, we need to strive to be more humble and work together as a unit and as a culture to better the lives of everyone regardless of race, gender, sexual orientation, and whatever else we can find to pick apart.
Today I celebrate all the wonderful women who have influenced me in one way or another throughout my life. Without you all, I would probably be a feral child in the hills.